Monday, August 31, 2009

Torn Between Two

There's a song from the past that describes a particular dilemma for me. The song is, "Torn Between Two Lovers". NO...I'm not torn between the love of my life, my wife of almost 35 years and someone else! I am completely, totally, head over heals in love with her! Instead it has to do with my feelings about my work.
Life's cirucumstances have pushed me to the point of wondering where I can best serve. As my parents, and Sue's, decline in health would it be best for me to be closer to them? As our grandchidren grow and get involved in new things, would it be good to be close enough to them so that we could be part of those things? OR...is it better to stay where we are and long to be closer to those who are most important to us?
The real question isn't about where we can be most effective in our work. I believe God will use us wherever we are. The real question is whether or not we are willing to continue sacrificing being close (physically) to family and remain in a "comfortable" place to work. (Comfortable is relative depending on what time of year we are experiencing.)
We've prayed about it and prayed about it. No decision is imminent as far as I can tell. Just exactly what is it that I'm looking for? Am I expecting God to open the sky and boom out the answer? Not exactly...but I do expect to hear His calling very clearly. I believe as time passes and churches consider us and we consider them, the answer will be very clear.
In the meantime, I remain torn between two...waiting expectantly for the answer to my dilemma.

1 comment:

ParamedicMommy said...

All three of us for sure long for you guys to be closer so we can see ya! Once or twice a year just isn't enough